‘My anti-bullying work and my body-building have helped, and now I look in the mirror and I do feel beautiful’
It’s taken me more than 30 years to be able to look in the mirror and be happy with what I see. I got bullied for having a big nose and being ugly, and for a very long time I was deeply unhappy with my appearance.
I suffered constant verbal abuse for years and ended up thinking, “I’m ugly, I’ve got no friends, and it’s always going to be like this.” But a gradual process of finding what makes me happy in life has created an inner confidence.
My anti-bullying work and my body-building have helped, and now I look in the mirror and I do feel beautiful. I’m not trying to promote plastic surgery, but the two procedures I have had changed my life. Because of the bullying I had a nose job, and afterwards I felt stronger. I thought, “You can say what you want to me now, but I’m not ugly.” I had breast surgery when I was 29. I had an uplift and had them filled out, and I definitely prefer them now.
I love my tattoos, too, and I’ve got hundreds, including a sleeve that tells my life story: people, places and events that have shaped me are all on there. They remind me of the highs and the lows I’ve experienced.
I’ve got mirrors everywhere in my house, and when I look at my body naked in them I love what I see. I’m 34 now and I’ve worked hard to get this fit and healthy. I feel sexy and I’m not worried about ageing. I think I’m like a fine wine or mature cheese: I’m getting better with age.
• Jodie Marsh: Can We Beat The Bullies? is on Channel 5